Wake
This is the sixth cover of "The Lacanian Review" that Cyrus Saint Amand Poliakoff and I have collaborated on. In our 'dreamy' particolored composite image for Nightmare, behind the iris and in place of the pupil, is a ravel of lightning but in inverted colors. The artwork evokes the membranous interior of an eyelid, the subject lit by a blinding light, noonday sun or stroke of lightning––or the horror of an eye gazing at itself. Three iterations of “wake” coalesce: an awakening that strikes as lightning; to wake to maintain the dream; and the eyelid that closes but doesn’t afford sleep. Later, the cover dawned on me as a formation. Periodically since I was eighteen, I have had a repeating nightmare in which I am awake but paralyzed, unable to escape or retaliate against a menacing presence, that in most variations of the dream, approaches me from behind. I cannot hear it, and rarely do I see it. I call out for help. I struggle to move, to run, but am immobilized, petrified, like wood. My unheard cries continue until I scream myself awake, to reconstitute my reality and save myself from the inevitable horror. I went on sleeping. This waking nightmare usually occurred during bouts of insomnia, when the desire to sleep was most intense. It was a struggle to live through the intervening days, to keep up appearances, to remain upright. But somehow I did. The series changed, but did not immediately end, with a punctuation from my analyst. I said, “I’m a wreck,” she re-sounded, “You’re erect,” and cut the session. Was it a question or a declaration? Five years later I had an awakening. I am again lying in a bed that now resembles a couch. The figure is looming behind me, framed by a large window. As I crane my neck to look, the head of the thing pivots to gaze directly at me. It is me.
Daniel Chapman, a web developer, and I broke ground on the site June 8, 2015 and constructed and reconstructed it as our schedules allowed. My ambition was to create a comprehensive space to house my art and corresponding activities, which include writing, teaching and screenings. The site also encompasses my work in the field of contemporary psychoanalysis and includes links to other places of interest. Images of works from and installation views of exhibitions in most cases represent a portion of what was shown. Titles and details for individual works will be posted subsequently. The site will be updated on an ongoing basis.
Technical specifications for the site are as follows: for back-end development, we used Rails with a Postgres database with rspec for testing; AWS and Heroku for hosting of the files and site. For the front-end work, traditional javascript and jQuery work, with Sass for design.
I’m grateful to Daniel for his expertise, creativity, and commitment. For more information about Daniel and his work, click here.